midday musings

today
i am sitting on my couch
in my night dress
it's almost 3 in the afternoon

i've spent a lot of this week like this
wake up early
potter about
do a load of wash
eat breakfast
wash the dishes
then faff about on the computer

my lack of motivation isn't that mystical
i've still not found full time work
i don't have a proper routine
and most people are at work when i am home
so it's not like i can make plans to go out and do things with people

the weather has heated up nicely this week
i found a purpose for the ugly curtains in the living room
keeping them closed keeps out the heat
and i only open the balcony door to let a little light through

the view, and the breeze
from the balcony is heavenly
everyday i look out it with awe
thinking one day i won't think it is that fantastic
but i hope that day never comes

the shafts of sunlight come through and warm my feet
that are planted in the square of light on the hardwood floor
in london i would have been soaking it up
but now i have gotten used to it
so i don't feel the need to over expose myself anymore

it still makes me think of beach holidays
and sand and surf
but there is none of that in my neighbourhood
only noisy neighbours, brightly lit street signs, and hawkers pushing their wares

a room with a view
it's what i always wanted.